want to be...

GeeeeeZ I havent updated in close to 100 years... seriously. this is mostly due to my lack of computer because mine broke. I am updateing at work... its a slow day. But anyways since the last time i worte god knows what has happened. ive just been hanging out with people and i wen to Ai Illinois Institute of Art for a summer school Fashion design Program. That was a lot of fun. I pretty much went to the same classes i would go to if i was to go to the school. The whole purpose was to preview the school. It was a very nice school actually. I would deffinatly go there, But i still have columbia to look at. and i have about a year to figure all this out.

On July 11th i am leaving for Las Vegas for 4 days. I am really excited about that because i have never been there but the shopping is just supposed to be spectacular.

Lollapalooza... July 23rd and 24th... i am too excited. The Bands im most excited to see are The Dead 60s, VHS or Beta, The Bravery, Blonde Redhead, THE PIXIES, Weezer, THe Ponys, Kasabian, Dinosaur Jr., tegan and Sara, Ben Kweller, The Arcade Fire, SPOON, The Dandy Warhols OR The Killers (both amazing bands but playing at the same time), last but most definatly not least.... my faroritest band EVER.... DEATH CAB FOR CUTIE!!!!!!!! <3

as far as the love life goes... im haveing a great time being single so i cant complain. but bob recently broke up with that aamanda girl... so yeah... but i dont think anything could happen there. it would just be weird and akward. and i wouldnt be single anymore... that would not be fun.

i updated a lot of the stuff in my MySpace (including pictures) so you should check it out www.myspace.com/strikemyheart

ive been thinking a lot latly, thats not exactly a good thing, but it isnt that bad.

i really miss matt. He got to see the Blood Brothers tonight. After the show he called me. It made me smile. I dont know why i have been talking in short sentences latly. I guess i really have to stop that.

I get to see matt at Lolapalooza (hopefully sooner) he is so awesome.

anyways i should probably sleep. <3

today was really fun because even though i was sick i was in a really good mood. i am going to see the blood brothers tonight... for a THIRD TIME! and yeah im pretty excited. then tomorrow night is the KILLERS!!! OMG... hahah.

I was at chris's locker today and we were kidding around and i showed him my drug pencil. and then for some reason he started telling everyone i liked Hawthorne Heights... eww! he was like yeling it in the hall way so i was like hitting him and telling him to shut up because ok... I DONT LIKE HAWTHORNE HEIGHTS! but yeah so that made me mad. Then i saw him again after lunch and he said he was kidding and he gave me a hug... im so special.

anyways... did i say how excited i am.

today i did not feel good but chris made me laugh. He said i should cough on him because he wants to stay home so i should get him sick. He was like... c'mon cough on me... i was just like... hmm.

other than that i dont feel to good.

i have to choose what concert im going to tomorrow night. that is pretty shitty. And i have homework ot do tonight. AND i am going to go over to my aunties house to see her puppie. <3

ahhh so i didnt exactly get home early last night... and i had to wake up for work at 6:30 this morning.. then drive out to Burr Ridge for the Photo shoot. Wow... that sucked.

so i was so tired that from 5 till 7 i slept...

im babysitting with chris tonight at the neighbors house.

damnit i need more sleep.

tonight i went to WHAT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE the backyard bash at bernacki's house but ended up bein g a garage show at some girl named Molly's house. Ben picked me up at 7:10pm. Joe's band (FROM ME TO YOU) played first. Bradon got there late so they did not start on time. Bradon is a big meanie face by the way. Myers was being a weirdo and talking about handjobs in the mic while bradon was setting his shit up. Then they played 4 songs... They did really good (a lot better than when they played the Founders Center) except you can never hear eric sing. After that Bill Dyer and his people showed up. Some pirate type band played and i hung out with Sam Goodwin and Robert Valdez. Robert is my new best friend <3. Nicki came to the show and that made me really happy because i love her and i did not think she was coming. Kids in the attic played a really good set. And Ela Adore had a pretty shitty set because the sound was fucked up. So needless to say ben was really mad on the way home. I feel really bad when he gets like this. There is only so much i can do. But i was really honest with him. i think im good at being honest with ben. At least i am becoming good at it. I pretty much told him that i know he has more potential than this because i know how good he is. I still really care about him... but i am over him. I am at a happy medium. There is someone.

I had a good night

1) using band names, spell out your name:

Muse
Interpol
Copeland
Head Automatica
Elliott Smith
Locust
Liars
Eels

2)have you ever had a song written about you? michelle by the beatles... its so about me
3)what song makes you cry? Maybe I'm Amazed - Paul McCartney
4)what song makes you happy? The Way We Get By - Spoon

a p p e a r a n c e
height: 5'4"
hair color: Brown with highlights
skin color: fake tan
eye color: green.
piercings: 5
tattoos: none

r i g h t n o w
what color pants are you wearing?: my distressed A&F jeans
what song are you listening to?: My Mathmatical Mind - Spoon
what taste is in your mouth?: im drinking mountian dew
how are you? im impartial... i have to go to a show for my ex boyfriends band tonight

d o y o u
get motion sickness?: sometimes
have a bad habit?: yes.
get along with your parents?: sometimes.
like to drive?: i scare myself when im behind the wheel

f a v o r i t e s
book: The Perks of Being A Wallflower
non alcoholic drink: water
alcoholic drink: i dont drink enough to have a favorite
thing to do on the weekend: go to shows... or the mall

h a v e y o u
broken the law: im sure i have
ran away from home: once but it was like for a day
snuck out of the house: once
ever gone skinny dipping: haha good times
made a prank phone call: yep
skipped school before: yeah
been in a school play: many in fact.

l o v e
Girlfriend/Boyfriend: not at the molement
children: ha no
current crush: hes a cutie <3
been in love: yes
had a hard time getting over someone: yeah.
been hurt: yeah.
your greatest regret: yeah im not gonna say it

r a n d o m
your cd player has in it right now: Spoon
what makes you happy: keyboards. nintendo noises. Carolyn. Nicki. Chad. parties. mittens. shoes. shows. music. electronica. dancing. kisses. hugs. sunglasses. Ponies. going to shows. going to the mall. shoes. kittens. drums. digital cameras. love. alot of things.

w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t
time you cried: i week or two ago
you got e-mail: i should probably check
thing you purchased: the shirt im wearing

y o u r t h o u g h t s o n
abortion: im pro choice but i dont think it is a good thing.
spice girls: i used to want to be Posh Spice
dreams: i have many of them

100 and counting down mutha fuckas! I will reach my goal.

i had like the best day x9743875354785735
it is nuts

and then i talked to the chad... which made me happy a lot.

<3

Feliz Cinco de Mayo!